I am dirty I am ugly Beyond words I am battered by my ways My sense of self preservation is lost My pride is diminished by my foolishness By my hands I am doomed By ways I am judged I lied to myself believing I would get away with it My hell is not beneath, not in the underworld My hell is here on earth For I see daily my path of flaws My victims and my evil trophies And though my repentance is here My past is still memory A burden I shall carry all the way Hmmmmmm Im sorry Lord Without you, I am alive without life By my hand, my sword is thrust to my heart.