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Hmmmm

I am dirty
I am ugly
Beyond words
I am  battered by my ways
My sense of self preservation is lost
My pride is diminished by my foolishness
By my hands I am doomed
By ways I am judged
I lied to myself believing I would get away with it
My hell is not beneath, not in the underworld
My hell is here on earth
For I see daily my path of flaws
My victims and my evil trophies
And though my repentance is here
My past is still memory
A burden I shall carry all the way
Hmmmmmm
Im sorry Lord
Without you, I am alive without life
By my hand, my sword is thrust to my heart.

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